Tina
Faigen's
SpiritTalk Calmness Corner
                              
More Reflections

In
the months to come, you may be met with the opportunity to share your first-hand
expertise, helping to pave a smoother road for those just beginning their
challenging journey through panic/anxiety symptoms. There
will be people who need the information you have acquired along your own
journey. If you remain open to their seeking, they will find you. Here are
10 specific ways in which you can assist:
Listen as they describe their fears
and symptoms, and acknowledge the realness of their experience. Fears spoken
aloud become less daunting.
Reassure them that they are not
the only one, nor the first one, to feel this way. Millions of other people also
have experienced anxiety symptoms and have an intimate understanding of what
it feels like.
Remind them
to visit a physician to rule out any possible medical cause for their
symptoms. Encourage them to seek professional psychological assistance. For someone already feeling overwhelmed, opening a phone book to
search for a counselor can feel too large a task. Take steps to help them
find appropriate guidance for their individual needs.
If
they express that they cannot cope, remind them that they already are
coping and help them to recognize the truth in this by pointing out the ways
in which they are coping.
Explain
to them that the physical symptoms they are experiencing are just an
exaggeration of their body's normal reaction to stress.
Remind them to focus on the present
moment instead of anticipating what may or may not happen in the future.
Teach them how to breathe slowly and
calmly, as you have learned to do.
Be patient as they make choices that
fit their individual needs, in their individual time frame. Applying
pressure, rather than encouragement, may close the door of opportunity and
connection which has opened between you.
Applaud
them for taking steps which
lead them forward, no matter how insignificant those steps may appear to be.
Remember how difficult some of those same steps used to be for you.
Be an example
by following your own
advice.

It
is common for those who experience panic/anxiety to have a well-developed habit
of using ‘all or nothing’ statements. Pay attention to the way you phrase
your own thoughts and notice how often you use the words always, never,
anything, everything, everyone and no one. Most
people would not consider uttering, "I can always do everything
right," yet it is quite common to hear a panic sufferer say, "I can
never do anything right." In most situations, the use of these words is a
false description and the truth lies somewhere between ‘all’ and ‘nothing.’
Consider these pairs of statements which use opposite extremes:
"I’m always afraid."
"I’m never afraid."
"I never do anything right."
"I always do everything right."
"Everyone thinks I have bad taste."
"No one thinks I have bad taste."
"No one understands me."
"Everyone understands me."
Not one of the above statements is truthful--even the second of each pair,
which is flattering. The truth is, sometimes we feel afraid and occasionally we
make mistakes; however, much of the time we do things well and not everything
scares us. There are certainly some people whose taste differs greatly from our
own, yet there are also many who do appreciate our unique taste and understand
us quite intimately.
By finding the middle ground, rather than using the extremes, we can express
our situation truthfully. Using the words sometimes, occasionally,
much and many is far more accurate than using the extremes. The
danger of participating in ‘all or nothing’ thinking is that eventually we
may come to believe we are speaking the truth. We can lose sight of what is real
and subsequently allow our choices and decisions to be a reflection of the
negative aspect used in our inaccurate thought.
Now look at all the flattering statements as they appear
grouped together:
"I’m never afraid because I always do everything right. No
one thinks I have bad taste and everyone understands me."
As nice as it sounds, the above thoughts simply are not true and you will
not find such a person.
It is just as untruthful to group together the opposite, unflattering
statements:
"I’m always afraid because I never do anything right.
Everyone thinks I have bad taste and no one understands me."
The above thoughts simply are not true and you will not find such a person.
If you think you are that person, give yourself credit for what you have done
well. Take note of all you have accomplished with and without feelings of fear.
Appreciate the unique sense of taste you have formed and applaud yourself for
developing relationships in which you and the other have grown to understand
each other.
While listening carefully to your choice of words, you can catch yourself
using ‘all or nothing’ statements. Consciously ask yourself if what you are
saying is accurate and if it is not, alter your phrases so they will be indeed
representative of the truth--which lies somewhere between ‘all’ and ‘nothing.’

Keep
your focus in the present moment. Panicky thoughts usually express fears about
an anticipated event--something that has yet to occur and in actuality may not
ever happen. By directing your thoughts from a non-existent future event toward
the present moment which is indeed happening, you will help your mind stay calm
and your body will follow suit.
Your body reacts to your thoughts and cannot distinguish future from
present. The more often you practice keeping your focus in the reality of the
moment by observing what is around you, the more living in the present will
become part of your regular thought process. And the less likely your body will
behave as if a danger is happening, when in fact, it is not.
While visiting a shopping mall, for example, which is a common place where
people experience panic symptoms, employ all your senses to keep your focus in
the present moment. Rather than attempting to shut out the stimuli, consciously
notice the bright lights, the conversations bouncing off the tile floor, the
colorful sale signs plastering shop windows, and the crowded display cases.
Malls are designed to stimulate shoppers and you have an opportunity to take
advantage of using all they provide to practice keeping your focus in the
present. Take a close look at the potted plants and feel their leaves, hear your
shoes clicking on the tile, notice how other shoppers are dressed. If you feel
momentarily overwhelmed, sit on a bench, slow your breathing and begin taking
conscious note of how many things you can observe around you. If you have paper
and pencil, you may find it helps you to regain your focus by writing down your
observations. When your mind is busy observing and writing, your thoughts cannot
be simultaneously focused on an imagined pending doom.
If you do not yet feel ready to practice observing in a mall setting, you
can begin by practicing in environments familiar to you. Right now, in your
comfortable and relaxed home environment, begin taking note of observations by
using each of your senses. Allow each sense to become acutely aware. As you sit
quietly, breathing slowly, allow your ears to pick up sounds. How many different
sounds do you hear? Are they coming from inside your home or outside? Notice
textures in your room. How many different textures do you observe? Continue
employing each sense, focusing on your observations.
Strive for a keener perception. No matter how many times you have seen or
heard something in the past, you can strive for a sharper perception, listening
with more and more care. Developing your awareness skills will bring you
superbly into a present focus. Consciously look and listen with more clarity
than you have in the past.
By practicing your observation skills on a daily basis when you are already
in calm, comfortable environments, you will become more at ease about applying
your developing ability while in unfamiliar settings. Each moment is an
opportunity to further strengthen your ability for living fully in that present
moment.

When practicing
meditation (or anything else), allow yourself to discover what works best for
you as an individual. Meditation is essentially the practice of developing your
ability to focus. There is no such thing as failing meditation because everyone
is able to focus and there are no rules that dictate how long one must focus. It
is an individual choice. No one ever need meditate for longer than is
comfortable. If five minutes feels good to you, then meditate for five minutes.
If you want to increase the amount you meditate, but still find more than five
minutes is uncomfortable, then meditate for five minutes several times a day.
It is not necessary to darken the room, sit in a lotus
position, light candles, turn off the phone and attempt to remove all
distractions to create an 'ideal' setting. Rarely in life will we locate the
ideal setting as we go about our daily activities, yet we do need to be able to
center ourselves throughout our day. It can be far more beneficial to practice
meditating wherever you happen to be, in the midst of noise and other
distractions, so that you can more easily carry your skills with you everywhere
you go. For one who experiences panic symptoms, having the practiced skill of
calming oneself while in any circumstance is key.
If you are able to focus on reading a book while riding
the subway, then you are able to meditate while riding the subway. If you are
able to focus on the television in a lit room, then you are able to meditate in
a lit room. If you are able to talk while walking, then you are able to meditate
while walking. If you are able to write while a clock is chiming, then you are
able to meditate while a clock is chiming.
Allow meditation to become a part of your life by
joining your practice and your daily life together in a way that works best for
the individual you are. You do not need to work for meditation--meditation needs
to work for you.

Most
who experience anxiety symptoms are quite familiar with the sensation of feeling
‘trapped’ during an ordinary circumstance, such as attending an office
party, sitting as an audience member in a concert hall or movie house, or
engaging in conversation. Where rules of etiquette seem to be implied, there is
a misconception that it is necessary to conform in order to be deemed a worthy,
likeable person in the eyes of others.
If you experience this type of discomfort it is
important to acknowledge that you have abundant choices; that the implied rules
are not necessarily based on truth. All of your own actions, thoughts and
decisions lie within your individual control. When you notice that you are
feeling trapped, direct your focus toward your vast array of choices. Feeling
trapped is your signal that you have chosen to permit an external influence to
dictate your decision. Giving that permission, however, is only one of the
choices available to you. Ask yourself why, with all the choices at hand, you
choose to be so accommodating to those around you that as a result you feel
trapped.
The first step toward better understanding your choices
is to become aware each time you use the phrase, "I have to...." When
you hear yourself thinking these words, question your assumption by considering
if this is truly something you have to do, and why you think you have to do it.
Ask yourself if this is really the only option available to you. Likely you will
discover that you have many choices in any situation and each choice has its own
possible consequence. Before you discard options, assuming they will not work,
without having fully explored them, look closely at the consequences you imagine
may result. Question if they are plausible or if they are based on your own
fears. After you examine each choice you can then decide which feels most
likeable to you, and hold rightful ownership of your decision. Instead of
saying, "I have to---" you can confidently say, "I choose
to...."
Having made a conscious decision for yourself, and
knowing you can change your mind as the situation unfolds, you have taken your
own actions into your own hands and therefore are not trapped by external
influence, or rules you thought existed but in truth do not. You
cannot be trapped by your own choice. You can only feel trapped by allowing
others to choose for you.

If you are
experiencing panic symptoms while in the presence of others, it can be
surprisingly helpful to express out loud that you are feeling panicky. Although it is common
to presume that those around you will not understand, or perhaps even poke fun,
in actuality most people respond in a concerned, caring manner. It is more realistic to assume others will react in a
compassionate way, such as you do when someone expresses to you that they are
not feeling well.
It is okay to interrupt someone who is talking and say,
"Excuse me, I am feeling dizzy and would like to sit down." By voicing
your discomfort, you will help keep the panic symptoms from escalating because
you are acknowledging them instead of trying to ignore them. Also, by speaking
up, you are providing yourself with the opportunity to focus completely on
returning your body to a state of calmness, rather than attempting to carry on a
conversation while secretly hiding the discomfort you are experiencing.
Treat yourself in the same nurturing manner in
which you treat others, and allow those around you to participate in caring about
you.

You
are not your panic. Panic is something you experience, not who you are. If you
announce, "I am agoraphobic," you are defining yourself as a medical
term by essentially expressing, "I = agoraphobia." Nothing could be
farther from the truth. Similarly, you do not "have" agoraphobia, but
rather you "experience" agoraphobia. Remember that you also experience
joy, sorrow, elation, pain, anger, delight, frustration, and excitement, along
with numerous other feelings throughout your lifetime experiences. If you allow
yourself to define your sense of self by what you happen to be experiencing
today, ignoring the rest, you are only acknowledging a tiny aspect of your life
experiences.
So who are you? Are you a mom or dad? You may be
experiencing raising a child, but the role of mom or dad does not define who you
are. Is this role an important experience? Absolutely, and no doubt it is both
challenging and rewarding, yet the experience is only one of many offering you
the opportunity for tremendous growth.
Are you your job? With or without a job, you are still
you. A job is something you experience, something you do, and it may be both
challenging and rewarding, yet it does not define who you are.
Today you are invited to reflect upon who you really
are, as opposed to the roles you play and the challenges you encounter. You may
find it useful to write down a list of the roles you play and the things you do,
starting each item with, "I am...". After completing your list,
examine each item one at a time, crossing out what you wrote and replacing your
answer with what you have learned through experiencing that role. These second
answers will represent more accurately who you really are.
Along with this exercise you are invited to examine the
experience of panic, reflecting upon the challenges and rewards the experience
offers. As you begin to see panic symptoms as something you experience, rather
than the definition of who you are, through the process you will open the door
to the experience's ultimate gift--the opportunity for tremendous growth and
self-understanding.

Take
on the role and responsibility of being your ultimate care-giver by
participating fully in your recovery decisions. You are the one who is most
intimate with your individual needs. You are the most important person in your
life. Listen and learn from the advice shared with you, but when considering
your options, trust your intuition to guide you to what is best for you. Panic
symptoms are not happening to you, they are happening with you.
Therefore you will need to participate in the process of understanding why they
are present with you in your life right now, and actively take on the
responsibility of choosing your recovery path. You are your ultimate care-giver.

Consider how
often you say the phrase: I can’t..., when you are speaking to others or
thinking to yourself. The more times you use the phrase, the more likely you will eventually believe
it is true even when it is not. Granted there are many
things you may not be able to do if you have not yet learned how (like play
the oboe or pilot a plane), but as you become more aware of your choice of
wording, you will probably discover a tendency to use the phrase, I can’t, in
circumstances when really, you can.
Try replacing that phrase with: I’m uncomfortable
about... The difference between the two is enormous. Rarely is the phrase, I can’t,
a truthful representation whereas, I’m uncomfortable about, is accurate
because it reflects how you honestly feel. By changing the wording, you are also
changing the possibilities of what will be. When using the phrase, I’m
uncomfortable about, a door opens to discovering specifically what aspects you
are uncomfortable with in the situation, which in turn opens the next door to
one of a new, less limited, comfort level.

Rather
than counting the number of days, weeks, months or years since your last panic
attack, count the number of days you have been actively working on
self-exploration, whether or not you experienced any panic symptoms on those
days.

 The most useful
calmness skill you can apply
to keep panic attacks from escalating into more intense ones is to consciously
breathe slowly. The ideal time to practice slow breathing is during moments throughout your day
while you are not experiencing panic. By focusing on your slow breathing
throughout your whole day, you will become intimate with how it feels to have a calm
body and awareness of your breath, and be able to apply that skill more quickly
and easily when needed.

 Experiencing
another panic attack does not mean your progress has slipped backwards. Rather
it is another opportunity to practice applying your calm breathing skills, as
well as an opportunity to gather more information about your feelings and
reactions.

Not
one person has ever died from a panic attack and neither will you.

You
cannot faint during a panic attack when you are consciously regulating your breathing.

You have
the right to set your own personal rules for yourself, and you have the right to
change those rules at any point in time.

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